BWAAHAHAHAAAHHHHHHH :( :'( :'((((((((((

I want to remember this moment forever. when it was still new. when there was still ONE MORE piece of harry potter left to be discovered.... before I knew it all and had read it all and seen it all, before I had cried every fresh tear, before I knew what was coming.
it's like it's all over already but it's not, not yet, still two more days, maybe three...
I just want to stay at home and watch the movies and read the books all day until it's here. I wish I had someone to do it with.
it really is the end of an era. a generation. thirteen years. my generation. the HP generation.

I WANT TO CELEBRATEEEE, I want to do something to commemorate...  :( I will figure it out. maybe I will spend all day drawing harry potter things or graffiti-ing lightning bolts or something good. I can do it by myself. We shall see. Now off to wal mart for supplies.

today, I realized that even if I never get married, even if I never find the right boy, as long as I still have my best friend by my side when we're 95, I'll be happy. :)

"Boring damned people. All over the earth. Propagating more boring damned people. What a horror show. The earth swarmed with them."
— Charles Bukowski

"For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can't readily accept the God formula, the big answers don't remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command nor faith a dictum. I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us."
— Charles Bukowski

seasick

when everything stops moving so fast your head spins
and you're not used to the motionlessness

nothing to say today. i've made like 10 bracelets since i've been here. now just to mail them out. i feel content doing that. productive. i suppose i could make some necklaces too.. i've been making earrings but they're not super great. haven't really gotten into the creative groove for that yet.

am reading midnight's children. i got all these lists of the western english speaking world's greatest books, and i'm going to try to count them off. classics and whatnot. i've read a few, mostly thanks to high school english class. but we shall see. they (obviously) don't read as fast as other books i've been reading.. also keeping a list of all the books i read this year. last year it was 83. since april this year it's been 5. it's funny, because it took me like a month to read shades of grey, and then i read the other 4 in the last couple of weeks.

next week i should go to the library. and the bookstore. pick up some more. I'm so antsy. impatient. to read and write more, and create. I love it. i've always felt this creative energy within and had urges to expel it, to use it, emote it, but have felt unable to... now I've just been doing it anyway. and it's okay. it works. it'll do. it'll get better :]

OKAY
I WILL SAY IT
I MISS JORDON