so today has been a long long long day... this morning I was in everett, at paul's, and it seems so far away now! we met melissa back at t.j's after movie night so we could carpool back home, me and melissa and danielle. and i had a ridiculous fever and achy body and horrible throat ache... so I've applied for a zillion jobs today, hopefully I hear back soon. and paul is applying at jobs too.

i heart this boy. i don't think i will be disappointed if he follows me to alaska. i hope it doesn't jinx us... but i am really happy with him. suspicious, and a bit jaded, but also letting myself get into it, and therefore terrified and trying to step back, and not being successful yet, but happy. :)

this kid is cool. makes my soul feel good. filled up and stuff.

it's love.

 i love these people.

 i've got some friends

 some that i hardly know

 but we've had some times

 i wouldn't trade for the world.

WOW!

so much has happened lately... I feel like a brand new person and yet the same old me as always. I am motivated, inspired, and continually thinking and pondering and wondering about this world we've created. Constantly questioning what puts it all together, and where I fit in, and who and how I want to be, and how I can become that way, and what makes it so. I dig it.... I dig Paul, a lot, even though I feel like no one else will understand, it's okay, he's my pint sized snowboarder boy, and we get each other, in a fundamental way that matters more than other things. It's cause he's a Gemini. Why have I not discovered this before. :) Things will come with time. Here I come AK!